Sometimes

Sometimes its tough to see what the purpose of something is. Its hard to see where your going to end up, or tragically...where you are even to begin. I'm still sitting in between things, trying to figure out my place, there are some really fantastic things happening with the music right now, if I didn't know any better I would say we should hit the road full time right now. I know that isn't the case right now and I know that there is something for me. I feel myself being called to some things but I don't feel its exactly the right time just yet. I feel a bit of fear with the transition that is happening right now but that is just because I can't see beyond even today let alone what is going to happen tomorrow.  I'm in a much simpler place right now and its what God's wanted from me in a long long time. He got me there on his terms not my own and I'm thankful. I've had a lot of free time to work on the band stuff and talking to friends I think this is where I need to be. 

I'm still job searching but I think I'm getting close to taking a job that will free up way way more of my time, I'm starting to see that money vs. time is huge and for me right now despite all my debt and all my uncertainties I'm finding my time to be more valuable than money. The money has still somehow come in, I'm not sure how, but it has, through the grace and unselfishness of my friends and parents and the odd job here and there. Again because of friends. 

Its funny because I have a better idea of what three years from now looks like than I do what tomorrow does. Everything could change with one simple phone call or email and until then I will continue focusing on the positives of life.  Its all I have right now.