Some new things again!

Hey all! Amazing what things start to happen when you start to actually decide your going to keep a blog sort of going...you find things that you want to write about.

Still looking for work in this crazy market but hopefully things pan out for the better. I've applied and heard back from a dog walking company. Hopefully they decide I'm a great guy for walking dogs. I think it would just be a ton of fun to do something like that. I am also going to go apply today at Music Center Canada on 32nd Ave. I am going to try and become a guitar/more specifically a bass teacher. I think that would be amazing to make a living doing something that I'm extremely passionate about.

A couple other notes for today...thanks to my brother Jonathan for telling me about a band named Eisenhauer. They are beautiful and they are coming to calgary in early apr...anyone want to come with me?

Check out their myspace....www.myspace.com/eisenhauermusic

Also something funky is going on with my coloring on the text after that link post....whatever....

Tonight my friend Phil is doing is poetry slam night. its in the Auburn saloon which it below the calgary tower. It starts at 7 and its going to be pretty cool, you should all come and check that out if you aren't doing anything.

I think the beard is coming in pretty well.....

Apparently there were some minor problems with the comments section. I disabled the part where you have to type in the letter and number combo's to post a comment. Hopefully that will fix it. 

Learning to love you more

Is a website that I have been frequenting quite a bit lately. Its full of assignments that they recommend you do and then send in your results and then they post the assignments that people have written or worked on so that other can see what's been going on. I was reading one last night that I loved!  It was entitled goodbye, I'm going to post it here and I would encourage you to comment on this and leave your own version of this assignment. Lets see what we can come up with....

Assignment 70

Say Goodbye.

Sometimes it's hard to say goodbye. It just feels easier to keep holding on. But in the long run it's usually a good idea to let go, it's the daring thing to do. It allows room for new things, for transformation. And maybe the goodbye isn't even forever, but you can't know until you really say goodbye and mean it. In some cases, goodbye is really the end, and good riddance! For this assignment, say goodbye to all the things you need to let go of: bad habits, dead people, alive people, ex-boyfriends and girlfriends, self-destructive feelings and behaviors, jobs, projects, re-occuring thoughts, etc.
  
Write it as a simple list:
  
Goodbye Bill.
  
Goodbye wetting the bed.
  
Good bye interrupting people when they are talking.
  
etc.
  
It can be as long or as short as you like. And, most importantly, take a moment with each one to really say goodbye. This isn't a catalogue of your fears and faults, this is a ceremony to bid them farewell.Please don't send us HELLOS, only goodbyes.

Goodbye uncertainties about my future

Goodbye negative people in my life

Goodbye accepting that I won't make my life anything but fantastic

Goodbye "Should"

Goodbye Lack of Motivation

Goodbye broken hearts

Goodbye not being thankful for everything.

Sometimes

Sometimes its tough to see what the purpose of something is. Its hard to see where your going to end up, or tragically...where you are even to begin. I'm still sitting in between things, trying to figure out my place, there are some really fantastic things happening with the music right now, if I didn't know any better I would say we should hit the road full time right now. I know that isn't the case right now and I know that there is something for me. I feel myself being called to some things but I don't feel its exactly the right time just yet. I feel a bit of fear with the transition that is happening right now but that is just because I can't see beyond even today let alone what is going to happen tomorrow.  I'm in a much simpler place right now and its what God's wanted from me in a long long time. He got me there on his terms not my own and I'm thankful. I've had a lot of free time to work on the band stuff and talking to friends I think this is where I need to be. 

I'm still job searching but I think I'm getting close to taking a job that will free up way way more of my time, I'm starting to see that money vs. time is huge and for me right now despite all my debt and all my uncertainties I'm finding my time to be more valuable than money. The money has still somehow come in, I'm not sure how, but it has, through the grace and unselfishness of my friends and parents and the odd job here and there. Again because of friends. 

Its funny because I have a better idea of what three years from now looks like than I do what tomorrow does. Everything could change with one simple phone call or email and until then I will continue focusing on the positives of life.  Its all I have right now.